Damn, I'm Going To Be Late!

Well my lovelies I managed to knock another day off without getting tore up from the floor up! lol Like I mentioned yesterday I have been starving to death since starting this journey. I feel like I'm gaining weight even if I think about eating. So I have a friend who has been sober 6 months, (GO PICKLE!) and she mentioned that she has started Zumba and is going to the gym a few days a week. So I have been doing some research into it and it has seriously caught my attention. Now keep in mind that I am a white girl so I may not be the best mover in the group, but I seriously doubt I will be the worst! I have also been walking everyday. I am at the point that I now am throbbing from every muscle I did not realize I had. But I figure I better do something or imma move my addictions to the food aisle! LMAO 

So I have never mentioned a very intricate person in my addictions, but he has been weighing on my mind the past few days heavily. I will be completely honest in this Blog with my name and things that I have been through.  However, I will not use other peoples names, that is not a right I feel that I have. Anyway, lets see what would be a good name for him? Hell lets just use his initial of S. cause obviously my brain has retired for the day;) S. is my latest in a long line of crash and burn relationships. So in this corner ladies and gentleman we have S. With him he brings a 10-12 yr on again off again prison record. With such charges as Distribution, Domestic Violence, Auto Theft, Assault on a Police Officer, Possession, blah, blah , blah. You get the idea. Now don't get me wrong S. is just an absolute gorgeous man and he's covered in tattoos, you know girls, the bad boys always steal our hearts, and our money, cars, etc. S. is an out of work (I have known him over a yr. and he has never had a job), abusive, alcoholic, and guess what, Brandy hooks up with him! Within the short span of a yr. this man parties like its 1999 everyday while I worked a full time job, took care of the house, and my two kids. We abused drugs together, anything from Methadone, Zannies, Saboxin, Tabs, Cocain, Pot and of course the all mighty liquor! My absolute fav was the "Four Loco." We also abused one another, very often. I have had black eyes, and a broken finger, until he finally realized that if he punched me in the head around the hair area there would be no marks for me to tie him to. Now I will not tell you a lie and say I was innocent. I got my share of licks in. He wasn't gonna whoop my ass and not get some! I have scratched his face, and chest and busted his lip. And when I say we did this I mean this happened to some level every night for months. 

Ok I know I got started here but I have church tonight and I didn't realize it was so late! I still gotta get a shower. So I will just pick back up tomorrow.  Sorry for cutting it so very short. Night and keep me in your prayers! Brandy.